duuudesss I'm so conflicted!!!!! I mean this isn't news to me but it keeps becoming apparent more and more! I love making char/s i know the last journal i said i was through but my mom got me thinking about applying to Pixar internships next year and then i thought about my portfolio review with RISD. I was showing the woman my photos and she said the way i took photos was like a story. With that she said it could lead to an animation and to go further with it. I kept being told that through out the day. The confliction is that I am majoring in Fine arts at SVA and for awhile I could accept the weirdness and broad conclusions fine arts can bring. So I was ready to fuck up my work.
                Now I'm like hyperventilating because MY future is so torn and conflicted. Arrgghhhh why do these challenges and wants interrupt my contentedness with my choice...I should try animating atleast the drawing kind. Sculpture animations  seem so foreign to me and more steps that i'm not even sure about, yes foreign is a good word to describe it. whyyyyy do i do this to myself!? I mean fuck! aw man what do i do. I know eventually i'm going to have to tackle this conflicting side of me, I'm just worried i'm going to be out of college wishing i had done something more.